Seeking

But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.

Deuteronomy 4:29

Little in our lives is simply by chance.  Every step, every breath, every mistake is part of God's perfect creation.  How often though do we go out searching, longing to find God?

Yesterday while I was at home I got to do something I used to despise doing.  Patch fence.  On our farm it seems like fence patching is an almost daily chore.  Where I used to hate it though, now I actually enjoy it.  It gives me time to think, to clear my thoughts, and most importantly, to admire God's perfect world.  So while I was patching fence I had my ipod going, and eventually it came to the end of the playlist.  Having my hands full, I continued working wishing something would break the silence.  About that time a breeze began turning an old windmill, with the fan blades clanking to keep me company.  I didn't go out searching for him, but God had found me in the big field next to the hay lot, and sent a little breeze to tell me he was there.

I think too often in life we think are alone in things.  A few weeks back as I as going through some of my own personal struggles I took the time to check my blood pressure- 180 over 90.  Way too high for anyone, most especially a 22 year old who goes to the gym 6 days a week.  It wasn't my lifestyle that was unhealthy, it was my stress level.  I had been keeping it bottled inside, killing myself in the process.  I realized I had to step away from the situation, turn it over to God, and move forward with my life.  You see, we are not alone in anything.  God is always there.  He's there in our parents for support.  He's there in our friends for advice.  He's there in our foes to challenge us.  He's there in our teachers to grow us.  He's there in nature to remind us of the marvels of his strength.  God is always there.

As I move back to school, I am going to make a conscious effort to seek out God in every aspect.  I am going to seek him in my relationships, strengthening friendships and working to build others up.  I am going to seek him in my schoolwork, imploring his wisdom to help me grow.  I am going to seek him in my health, turning my problems over to him, knowing he has all the answers.  I am going to seek God in other people, continuously looking for ways he is helping others to achieve his will.

I got a bit long winded this time, and I apologize.  But if we seek God in everything we do, we will not fail.  But if we fail to seek God in anything we do, we are guaranteed dissatisfaction.  Seek him first, and you will never know defeat.

Home

Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.(Proverbs 22:6 ESV)

Time and time again this summer, I found myself wondering, how would my parents feel about my actions. I remember thinking once after I had accidentally not paid on the metro by slipping through the doors without realizing my card had not scanned, how upset my Dad would be knowing that I had "stolen", regardless of the fact it was just a dollar. And then there was the time I didn't return a phone call from a friend for quite a few days. What would my mother say about not returning a bit of gratitude.

Proverbs 1:8-10

Hear, my son, your father’s instruction, and forsake not your mother’s teaching, for they are a graceful garland for your head and pendants for your neck. My son, if sinners entice thee, consent thou not.

Now that I am back home, it's much easier to follow my parents "rules". No I am not under their roof, nor do they know my every action, but I feel closer to them, and as such, know that what happens they will eventually find out about.

One Sunday this summer the message at church was on freedom. Freedom from rules, freedom from regulation, freedom from all of the things that hold us back. This summer I had complete freedom. I could do anything I want, go anywhere I would like, and stay out as late as I desired. This was what some viewed as freedom. But I was also hours away from those I cared the most about. I was hours way from my hometown that I love. I was hours way from a lifestyle and an upbringing that means more to me now than ever before. My freedom from rules served as a jail- an ever constant reminder of how "freedom" was in some ways more oppresive than ever before.

I was "free" from those who would serve as my accountability partners. "Free" from the physical presence of people I loved. "Free" from the reminders and examples of how to live a Christ centered life. Yes, I had "freedom".

When my plane landed in Tampa I have never felt more free. Gone were the chains of daily reminders of a lifestyle I hope to never have again. Gone was the lack of Christian example. Gone was the longing for home.

This summer I had freedom, but I also had a family at home who I care for more than anything. I had a Christian example waiting for me, and a reminder of the freedom that Christ's love affords us. Yes, we can have an experience freedom in our lives, but it is the freedom that comes with eternal life that offers a truer reward. Although I was in DC, and miles from my parents, I had their examples and their life lessons which guided me through a summer of freedom.

Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.

While I am not old yet, I know which the path I must go becomes ever clearer, and I am glad for the freedom to chose, the freedom to learn, and ultimately, the freedom for experience God's love.

The vine

Jesus said, "I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who abide in me and I in them bear much fruit, because apart from me you can do nothing."
-John 15:5 (NRSV)

This last week has been quite a rush for me. Finishing up at work, tying up loose ends, getting ready for fall classes, and generally just living life has seemed to fill up my day beyond the 24 hours I have. And as the week has worn on, I have made less and less time for God. It’s funny though, I seem to not find time to blog, or read my Bible, or even pray, but I still manage to find time to do other things.

This week I have not allowed Jesus to bear fruit through me. I’ve allowed lapses of judgment in my relationships, losing the confidence of others. I’ve allowed lapses of judgment in my personal time, not focusing on important factors in life but instead wasting time on triviality. As I give in to temptation and allow myself to stray from Christ, I find myself more unhappy than ever.

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the vine grower. He removes every branch in me that bears no fruit. Every branch that bears fruit he prunes to make it bear more fruit. You have already been cleansed by the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me as I abide in you. Just as the branch cannot bear fruit by itself unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in me. I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who abide in me and I in them bear much fruit, because apart from me you can do nothing. Whoever does not abide in me is thrown away like a branch and withers; such branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned. If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask for whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. My Father is glorified by this, that you bear much fruit and become my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you; abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love. I have said these things to you so that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be complete.
-John 15:1-11 (NRSV)

As I look back over my past week I see things in my life that have caused hurt to myself and others. Christ is the vine, and God is the vine grower. I just ask that he removes the branches of sin that allow me to be lacking in faith and in productivity for him. I ask that he repair those branches which I have caused harm to. And I seek to renew myself in a sense that I can multiply his love through my actions.

Loopholes

2 Timothy 4

3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables. 5 But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry.

As I seek to understand the Bible more, I continuously struggle with the meaning behind the words. Because it was written thousands of years ago, society as a whole is different, and as a result some passages can be taken out of context.

I think we as people do this more than we realize. Or maybe I’m just worse than most people, but I constantly look for- and often find- loopholes if you will that justify my actions. In fact, I’m know as one to push the envelope. If I have clear expectations and guidelines, I will follow them….most of the time. But if I think I can get away with something, yeah, I’ll do it.

What are the loopholes in our life we are seeking to find? Does going to church on Sunday make it ok to do whatever we want the rest of the week? Does tithing ten percent mean that we don’t have to spend as much time worshipping God?

The truth of the matter is, not matter what we do, God still loves us. At the end of the day, we are his children. Is he disappointed at times in our decisions? Oh yes. Does he wish for us to follow his word to the letter? You bet. But at the end of the day, we are his children and we have his love.


This week, let’s try to not find the loophole. Instead, seek to follow God’s word without exception. Am I going to mess up? Heck yes. But I know that his word sets forth the path which I am supposed to follow, and as long as it is in sight, I know that I am forever in God’s eyes.

Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

- Psalms 119:105

God's Grace

The God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

1 Peter 5:10

It's ironic that this is today's Bible verse. Or maybe not so ironic as much as it is planned. You see, I am in the midst of reading the Story of Job and still find it amazing what Job went through and yet never renounced his love for God. How many of us are willing to do that? I would hope I would have the patience of Job, but do I want to be tested, heck no.

You see, we are never without God, although sometimes God is without us. While we may at times turn our backs on him in times of pain and sorrow, he never stops loving us, and in time, will restore us.

One of the best examples of this I saw over the beginning of the summer in Egypt. One of the largest, most wealthy companies in Egypt is owned by a devoutly Christian family. Time and time again the government places restrictions upon them, trying to limit their success. But time and time again, the family prospers, also bringing prosperity to other Christian families as their share their success.

It is through their faith in God and their steadfast resolve they are successful and rewarded. It would be easy to give in, convert, or just give up, but instead they stick to their Christian principles and as a result are rewarded in this life and no doubt in the next. It is by God's grace and his loving arms we are rescued from suffering and returned to a place of steadfastness and strength.

Ephesians 6:10

Finally, be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of his might.

I pray that even through suffering, we will stand steadfast in our faith, knowing that we have an all knowing and all loving God who is stronger than we can imagine and will never give us more than we can handle. I pray that in all things, we turn them over to him, so that his will can be done.

Without Walls

Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self-control.

Proverbs 25:28

God certainly has a plan for everything.  Every step we take, every breath we breathe, every decision we make, he has known before us.  He gives us the freedom and the free will to run our own lives.  He simply set forth some parameters for us in the beginning.

In this text the Bible refers to a city whose walls have been broken down, and is left vulnerable to invaders.  Our lives are the same way.  When we lack the self control, when we allow the walls made of our values to fall, we allow the devil into our lives.  At first it may be only one or two mistakes, but eventually our life is overrun and taken over by Satan, and only through God's grace are we rescued.

I pray today that God will strengthen my walls of self control and keep his hand upon me, guiding me through life with gentle reminders of the rules he set forth.  And I pray that he will give me the strength to stare down temptation and live to glorify him in every way.

Ecclesiastes 9:10

"Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave, there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom."

I don't really have any thoughts right now. I just liked the verse. And at 5 o clock on Friday evening, I felt it very fitting. Work hard. Play hard. But in all things, I will strive to allow my faith to shine through.